can't find home

by Four Mile Portage

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chilly winds 03:03
I'm going where the chilly winds the chilly wind don't blow Going to my long lonesome home. I'm going where the water tastes, the water tastes like wine When I'm gone don't you weep, don't you weep for me
sandy boys 02:24
Someone stole my old coondog wish they'd bring him back jumped the old hog over the fence and the little one through the crack Oh oh sandy boys waiting for the break of dawn (2x) Mama she lays sick in bed, papa's gone to town, Charlie wears those high-top boots, sure wish he'd come around squirrley's got a long bushy tail, possums tail is bare, rabbit's got no tail at all, just a little tuft of hair
matt 20 02:21
Said the mother of James and the mother of John promise me this will be done. I want one on the right and the other on the left my James and John will serve you right. You don't know what you ask can you drink from this cup? Oh yes I can drink from that cup my James and John will serve you right put one the R and the other on the L my J and J will serve you right. Then the other ten, they overheard said, “why not me?” I'll serve you right put me on the R and another on the L Oh yes we'll serve you day and night If it's service you want then it's service you will get The one on the right will serve you all the one on the left will do as well Look at me I came to serve with my own life I give you yours
wait 03:49
From dust I came and back to dust I one day will return there is no one to hold me now. My eyes are bright but my voice is fading fast from your ears my struggles here are almost through And I wait for night and I wait for my wake-less night and I wait for you to call for me and I wait in here in this hollow shell and I wait for you to sing to me I have no fears the alter comes on casters for me now I will return and sing for you My grip will ease but something in me holds on today my parting takes more than a day. (call me home)
home 03:15
i've had this feelin' since I was ten I'm trying to get home and I never can. Looking for people to call my own I'm looking for folks who'll know this song. and I can't find home Snow covered white pine calls to me the closer I get the farther it seems Ruffed grouse jumps my heart to a race trying to tell me to have more faith. and I can't find home fourteen water towers line the sky I'm trying to figure out which one I live by it's not like suffering it aint like pain i just want to be called by my true name and I cant' find home.
900 miles 04:02
It's 5 pm on the east coast it's 8 o'clock on the west but up on top of the lines and the crowds That sun just keeps on spinnin' without rest Chorus: Where it comes in clean and it goes out muddy They swim out fresh and they come back red Where the waters heave on the corkline and the graying dawn of the midnight sun has a rhythm all of it's own A cool salt sea by the mornin's tide a muddy river's all that's left here by one the full moon sails over the mountain and that sun just keeps on spinnin' without rest Chorus Instrumental Can an anchor hold back this river Can my eyes lead me home in this fog Will I find peace on this fixed dry land without breathing in the salt and the mud Chorus, but last line: holds a rhythm that will guide me home Last Chorus again
As the sun comes rising up on the big hills my Johnson outboard breaks the morning loose Gonna cross from stove hill and look up the White Pine there I'll see Bobby, my Iron-Sight Bobby We'll share the stories, we'll hike the boot trail we'll drive 'em all past Diablo Stand With the fire started and the lunch stew ready With my Bobby, my iron-sight Bobby. A bear skin rug out of the garbage, Run down garage that's been cut in two. It's ain't about short cuts, when nothings wasted He's my Bobby, My Iron Sight Bobby Don't be afraid to blaze a new trail there may be something worth finding there you can't get lost if you trust your compass just like Bobby, my Iron sight Bobby. Bob taught the lessons he learned the hard way he'd give you shit, but with a smile. You always knew that he loved you He'd been there and done his time. Can you have no fear if you don't know fear? no senseless rebels are needed here let's trust our instinct, and use the iron-sights They work best when you trust your aim. And so I'll wait till my own crossing carries me home to those big hills I'll walk right up his white pine I'll find Bobby, My iron-sight Bobby.
if you asked 03:35
If you asked, I would tell you of the light in your eyes the shines as clear and blue as the sunny winter sky If you asked, i would tell you the shape of my dreams the hope of my heart, the desire of my soul. And I would tell you all. Withholding not a shadow the broken and the whole. I'd tell you all. If you asked, I would give you the best of my dreams the work of my hands, the whole of my heart. If you asked, i would give you the shelter of my arms the strength of my body, my mind to understand And I would give you all. Withholding not a shadow. The broken and the whole. I'd give you all. If you asked I would give you all that's in my heart It's wrapped and it's waiting. I would give you all. I won't give what's not wanted. The broken and the whole. I give it all. If you asked I would give you all that's in my heart It's wrapped and it's waiting.
chris 02:04
Everytime my grampa'd cut down a tree he'd shape that stump into a little chair 40 years later, though he may be gone all through the woods lie his little chairs. Walkin' through the woods, thinkin' I'm the first one there I see that grampa made a tree stump into a chair Thinkin' to ourselves, we're blazin' a brand new day we see grampa's upstairs laughing away I courted my gal so strong and sweet feelin' this love could not be beat lookin' through the photos after world war II I see grampa lovin' grandma just as true. When I was a boy I whistled every tune I's the best darn whistler that I knew my mamma later told me grandpa too whistled each day like I used to.
I once had a man who's heart was a stone I once had a man who's feet they would roam I once had a man who loved me completely Oh oh mama I wish I had known. I thought that the first one would love me I thought that the second would stay I thought that the third would be just like the others Oh oh mama I wish I had known I'll look for a man with a true heart I'll hope for a man who will stay When I find me another who loves me completely Oh oh mama he won't get away
higher rock 04:19
snow day 04:03
I ask you if you love me you turn and look away now what am I supposed to do with that? It's not that I don't love you the problem's that I do more than I can bear to show to you. you're not wrong and I'm not crazy we just don't understand I love you and I'm scared to death of that. Can you help me with this problem Oh no no never mind you're busy and I can do it all myself I don't hear you, You can't hurt me, when I screw up again But what else did you expect of me? Oh great now you're leaving There's nothing I can do Fine, I couldn't fix it anyway Why can't you look and see me, Walking really slow waiting for you to call me home. Can you hear me, when I call you can you see me when I cry Can you hold me when I'm pushing you away Is it ok if I need you Is it ok if it's hard Do you love me even when I am a fool?


released January 1, 2014

Tom Maloney, Brandy Forsman, Kyle Ollah, and Bonnie Hundrieser. all but track 18 recorded live at Sacred Heart Music Center, Duluth MN. All photos by Deborah Sussex.


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Four Mile Portage Duluth, Minnesota

We play dances in MN and WI since 2005 for Tamarack Dance Assn, Tapestry Dance Assn, & North Country Fiddle & Dance. Sing, clog, and perform regularly at Amazing Grace Bakery and Cafe, Beaners Central, and Farmer's Markets. We love to get people dancing at parties & weddings, or happy to just to hang in a corner playing tunes. Guest artists on Charlie Parr's 2011 "Keep Your Hands on the Plow" CD. ... more

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